Officially a 4th year

I'm a 4th year!! Woo hoo!!! 4th year brings a bag of mixed feelings. On the one end, I'm almost officially done with medical school which means I'm almost a doctor!! On the flip side, I'm almost officially a doctor :-/ .

You see, it's exciting because the end of 4th year will make me the very thing that I've always wanted to be since I was a child;  a physician. Even though this journey has made me question my decision to pursue this field, this doesn't negate the fact that this was my dream and  that at this time next year, I would have fulfilled that dream with His help. It will be the very thing that propels me into the next major phase of my life. On the other hand, it's hard to think of little old me bearing the responsibility that becoming a physician brings. People are going to be asking ME to make decisions about THEIR lives & health. Ahhhhhh!!! Crrrrazy! I often wonder if i'm truly ready for that. But I have no doubt that as God has brought me this far, He will continue to keep me and make me a great physician for my patients.

The other things that 4th year seems to bring is more stress and anxiety. Having to schedule away electives, being under scrutiny while doing subinternships, deciding where I want to do residency, filling out applications,traveling for  interviews, and the big one next year: the Match: the very thing that will tell me where I will be spending the next few years of my life. It's a lot. I'm just trusting God to work it out this year. There's so much to do. Keep me in your prayers!!

 

4th year, let's go!!

 

Best wishes on your endeavors in this next year!

 

~B